I'll be back~ (^o^)

Hmm..2day, got class again..it's about risk management..i hv promised myself 2 pay 100% attention for whole session! i hide my handphone, jz pencil and note on my table..haha..but i forgot 1 important thing, calculator.. =.= i spent all my energy and tried all my best to absorb as much as possible wat the trainer try 2 explain.. u noe which trainer? is the same trainer who successfully "train" me 2 break my own record, failed all his 4 papers previously..rated at 30 to 40 out of 100~ is ok 1 u noe..i actually dont mind 2 resit for all paper, but i wan 2 find out, whether is my problem, or his problem for the problem statement as above..=p why wan 2 find out? haha, coz last time my lecturer used to call me "exam machine" in univ, how true is it? come, experiment time!

ard 4.30pm, exam start...and result released...i got 70/100...got right for 7 questions, objective questions, but it's not easy, coz the sentences keep on misleading the reader.. =.= altot u understand the concept, still wil got the wrong answer due to tricky phrases...lolz...okla, i admit la, careless again lor.. i failed this paper, coz HR set the benchmarking point of at least 80/100, so no doubt, resit la~ hahaha... i'm happy, coz i know i have tried my best, i try 2 score 80, but seems like fated tat, i need 2 failed his paper~ =p mood turns good, becoz of the test...i know wat happen 2 the previous me, i never put 100% concentrate on doing everything, and then bad things happened.. i start to blame this and blame that, but never blame on myself! ya...should be this factor tat bother me for past few weeks indirectly! i need to fight with IT! i wanna K.O. my laziness!!!

start from 2day onwards, no more pesimistic, no more negative, no more blame, no more comparison!!! must control the "internal factors" in myself... one day, i know i will be on the top! and then.. can revenge!! hahaha...those who treat me badly now, better watch out lo...i guarantee that u will regret, especially the ppl who look down on me! ;) God/Buddha/Allah bless...(*p.q*)

I'm sorry...

12/1/2009...wow, monday again...erm, Moody rated me at BBB lo...=p

nothing much to learn today in class, jz half day class oni..after that other groups all went to main office to do their presentation...how about the remaining 3 groups? stay in class and wait til 5pm..do nothing... wasting my life there...damn it.. =.= to be frank, stil in negative condition...but is a small negative number, if compare to last friday i think... 2day i found that, my colleagues all damn positive, they can accept that the things happened, and view it from another angle, i was so shame on myself... why cant i just be like them? is tat the X-factor that they have actually? i think i need 2 do re-adjustment on my mind-set and thinking...

went back home, lay on my bed n fall slept...coz yesterday i got insomnia til 4am, cant sleep well oso...too bad, b4 sleep, my watch spoilt, mirror crack and broke...my fault, careless...it's not expensive, but not a good sign for me..=( is ok, nvm, next time i can work til mid-nite without watch, i wont time myself anymore!!! =)

as normal and usual, i on9...on my MSN, check every mails in yahoo n hotmail...i got shock when i saw 5 mails from YOU 2day! i was wondering wat happen...either is YOU got problem, or u noe my problem... i read the mail, one by one...i heard about all the stories b4, YOU told me last time..some sentences even stick on ur red cardboard now...it's stil store in my mind, but i have ady locked it...coz i tot i wont need them for short term, but i'm wrong... i dunnoe wat 2 say, touching actually...i'm kind of ppl tat dunno how 2 say THANKS when i feel touch...i din cry, stil calm n normal...jz tears dropped oni, it's warm...but stil melted my heart, thus felt abit pain...ya, i prefer that, pain til numb and then will recover automatically...THANK YOU..=) i wanna apologizes, hey YOU, i'm sorry...make u feel guilts and worry...tat's one of the reason tat i don't wan complaint to YOU about the case..u're not slow for the story, jz i dunno tat u will read my blog...SORRY, and thank YOU..

it's 12.30am now... i'm tired... will recharge my energy soon, hope tat i wont suddenly shut down, jz like wat happen to my handphone now... i'm forced to hide? haha...steady, everything will b ok, i still believe, good things come..after bad things go! =)